“Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.”

-Edgar Allen Poe


Saturday, October 20, 2012

The little things in life.

“Enjoy the little things, for one day you make look back and realize they were the big things.” ~Robert Brault

Sometimes it seems its all the little things in my life that I love the most, and gets me through the hard times in my life. So here is a small list of some of little things in life that I find happiness in.

  • Getting lost in a book
  • Walking around barefoot in the hot summer
  • Black and White movies
  • Singing at the top of your lungs in the car with your best friends
  • Rainbows
  • Swing on a swing at the park
  • A smile from a stranger
  • Feeling like a kid again
  • Long deep conversations with friends
  • Laughing so hard you begin to cry and your stomach hurts
  • Hearing the right song at the right moment
  •  Smell of freshly cut grass in the summer
  • Seeing a friend you havent seen in a long time
  • Wishing on stars, 11:11, birthday candles, and fallen eyelashes
  • Seeing old couples still in love
  • Smell of summer rain
  • Finding someone who gives you butterflies
  • Knowing someone misses you
  • Making new friends & spending time with old ones
  • Coffee
  • Getting something right the first try
  • Freshly painted nails
  • Good hair days
  • Dancing in the rain
  • Photo booth pictures
  • dancing
  • daydreaming
  • putting on red lipstick
  • The thought of a new day
  • A fresh new tattoo
  • Live local music
  • Sound of birds chirping
  • The moon
  •  The fall crisp air right after the hot, dry summer
  • Feeling like you finally belong
  • candlelight
  • Freshly dyed hair
  • seeing the passion in someone eyes when they talk about something they love
  • concerts
  • Stars
  • Driving around with the windows down and no place to go
  • Hugs; especially when you need them the most
  • Being alive here in this moment

Those moments.

I love unmade beds. I love when people are drunk and crying and cannot be anything but honest in that moment. I love the look in people’s eyes when they realize they’re in love. I love the way people look when they first wake up and they’ve forgotten their surroundings. I love the gasp people take when their favorite character dies. I love when people close their eyes and drift to somewhere in the clouds. I fall in love with people and their honest moments all the time. I fall in love with their breakdowns and their smeared makeup and their daydreams. Honesty is just too beautiful to ever put into words. Because in those moments you see nothing but the true side of people. How real and human a person can be.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Its time- Imagine Dragons



A really awesome, inspirational song from Imagine Dragons. Not to mention its on the trailer for "The Perks Of Being A Wallflower" which makes it so much better! :)

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Change.

Lately Ive been really fixated on the fact that nothing ever goes the way I expect it to, or make it out to be in my head especially right now in my life when I'm trying to figure out just who i am and, what I essentially want from life.
 From stupid little things like a job interview to my whole entire high school experience or even a relationship with a friend. When I realize I cant control something and things don't go the way I expect I give myself the biggest anxiety attack and feel like my world is crushing down on me. why?

What is it that makes me so upset when things don't happen the way I plan?

If I think about it, it’s often my resistance to change that causes me the most problems in life. Ive always been really uneasy and horrible with any kind of change (besides my hair). I'm the girl who has had her bed in the same position for the past 12 years and the moment I change the position of it even slightly I cannot even begin to force myself to sleep because of how uneasy i feel, but then at the same time I can change my hair color and cut as many times i want and not give a shit in fact I crave change in my looks!
With any other kind of change, whatever it may be I get this really overwhelming sick, scared sorta feeling that everything is just horribly wrong and nothing in my life is right or what its supposed to be. I begin to wonder who i am and what I'm doing.

But if anything the thing that shakes me up the most, and  is the change that is hardest for me to get over is the change of the people around me and in my life. I cannot handle whatsoever when the people I care about the most and need in my life just all of a sudden change and leave. I begin questioning and blaming myself. Whats wrong with me? What did I do? It eats me up inside to the point that I just shut everyone and everything out. Why?

What Ive come to realize the past year and have been trying my hardest to adapt to is that I cant let the fact that things are going to change affect me. Because whether I like it or not things, people and even myself are going to change. Its part of life. I cant control it. Only embrace it. I believe now that people are going to change and leave my life for a good reasons, and it will only make room for the people in my life that are going to actually genuinely care about me. Besides the fact that life is changing constantly, and you never know what its going to happen is probably the greatest adventure of them all! And im always hungry for a new adventure!  :)

Saturday, October 13, 2012

why?

Be Afraid

My whole life I’ve been telling myself, “Don’t be afraid.”
And it’s only now that I’m realizing how stupid that is.
Don’t be afraid. Like saying, “don’t move out of the way when someone tries to punch you” or “don’t flinch at the heat of a fire” or “don’t blink.” Don’t be human.
I’m afraid and you’re afraid and we’re all always going to be afraid, because that’s the point.
What I should be telling myself is, “be afraid, but do it anyway.”
Live anyway